how much we take for granted

I follow fatmumslim on instagram and doing the photo a day challenge and today's theme is "something starting with a K", and my first thought was of a kiss. This made me think of how much I miss being kissed and how much I took a kiss for granted. How much I would give right now to be kissed by the one I love. How much I would give for just a smile or a touch from him and how much I would cherish it for every second that it happens and thereafter. How much did I take for granted that is no longer there. I use to complain about being the "house wife" and cooking every night and doing the laundry etc. and right now I am out of that comfort zone and I miss it. At the same time I am not sure I want to go back there because it is not with the one I love and I am not sure that is what would make me completely happy. The one I love however doesn't want me either so I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. How does a guy say you are his entire world and he will never give up on you and then suddenly switch off based on two mistakes that I made? That is a completely different conversation for another day. Complications...so from a combination of my life maybe I should make a list of what I feel I took for granted and no longer have (even though it may seem trivial against what some people don't have and I do):

• my own bed
• my own home and space
• a hug and a cuddle
• back tickles
• a kiss
• making love
• taking my son to school every morning
• fighting over who will cook and who will bath my son
• watching whatever show I want to on t.v.
• getting messages to say "I love you" and "I miss you"
• having Skype calls to smile and see a smile and just be me
• road trips
• 3am morning calls to say I love him
• the reassurance that I am amazing and worth the world to someone
• family
• having something to do that involves people on the weekend and not just me on my own, even though this is the furthest thing from what I want to do right now because everything reminds me of him.
• planning for the future